The Sweet Smell of....

SCHOOL SUPPLIES!!!  Don't you just LOVE it?!?

I mean, don't you just want to press your face against the computer screen and inhale with all your might?!  Oh man, I sure do!  Ha!  I don't know what it is about pens and paper, but they stimulate an excitement within me like nothing else.  The whole experience....walking up to Staples, Office Max....any office supply store....the quiet slide of the automatic doors....the WHOOSH of cold blasted air slamming into your face while carrying the strong sacred scent of fresh ink and paper reams for your nose to indulge itself.  Sweet mercy.

And the COLORS!!!  I can't ever pick just one.  If there is a package that holds my favorite writing utensil that has every color selection available, you can be certain that it will hurdle itself into my basket.  I get giddy like a school girl when I rip open the package at home and lay the colors out in rainbow color order...red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, pink....and then just stare at them.  I mean, I don't even have to USE them to flip out.  No, just looking at them and all their colorful beauty makes me quite pleased.

I'm not partial to any certain kind.  However, I do have my trusty faves that I always come back to.  Sharpie for labeling and neat projects requiring a permanent pizzazz; Papermate ball point pens (in a variety of colors) for writing on those glossy surfaced papers; and the Pilot G2 gel pens for any writing I want to do at all.  While the pens and markers are fabulous, I thoroughly enjoy browsing for stuffs to use them on just as well!  Journals, stationary, note cards, college ruled notebooks, thank you cards, index cards, calendars.....the obsession is endless!!!  Just writing about it is getting me all worked up!  It may sound ridiculous.  This may all be bizarre, but I am willing to bet a hefty amount of pocket change that you have that one, simple "thing" that really gets to you.  Something that really revs your motor,  that truly speaks to your inner self and makes you scream, "YES!" or "MORE!" What turns you into a giddy 10 year old kid?  What makes you squirm with excitement?

Apology and Cross My Heart

Two years have passed.  That's proper time lapse between blog posts, right?  While my first reaction is disgust with myself, I am going to pass on excuses and just offer a simple apology.  Onward I must go.  So much change....so many new twists....so much movement in so many different directions.... This is my time to finally flow with the go and remove myself from the bench I've been parked on for far too long.  Index finger extended and criss-crossing my heart, I can honestly say that posting will be regular.  End of story.  And forward! 

A Poem for my Mom

I apologize for my absence!  I promise to do better.  I wrote a poem for my mom....so this is for her.

"Super Heroes"

"Moms" are what they are called,
But that doesn't seem fitting...
These women are so much more,
Need a title that's more committing.

They begin on a whim,
Not knowing what's in store,
Then rise to the occassion,
And continue on to soar!

The joke often goes
That they go by many a name,
Li,ke "maid", "butler", "medic",
"Servant", "driver"....all the same.

They offer up love,
Like they'll never run out,
And they comfort all tears,
Give benefit of a doubt.

Smother babes with kisses,
Lend always their shoulder,
Stand watch waiting for those,
Whose heart grew colder.

Advise frequently,
Whether asked for or not,
Forgive almost daily,
Always there when they are sought.

Share with their laughter,
Warm a room with a smile,
Always understanding,
They have walked that mile.

So many years,
They give up who they are,
And continue to give,
Above...beyond...by far!

Yet they walk among us,
Not wearing capes,
Instead their arms are open wide,
Providing us an escape.

They push and they pull,
Whichever we need most.
They celebrate our achievements,
And parties they host!

They are worth so much more,
Than one day has to offer;
More "oomph" to their title,
No "chaperone"; No "chauffer"

How is it I know?
What example can I share?
Well it is quite simple...
Its MY mother that's there!

She is more than all this,
More than words can express.
She takes life by the horns,
This earth is her fortress.

She is my role model,
Who I want to become.
I love her so much.
She is my mom!

Seatbelts fastened and looking forward....here we go!

I have thought many times about creating a blog, but never have acted upon past notions until now.  I am one of those "multi-taskers" that has many things going on at once....including in my head!  So I had trouble deciding on what type of blog I wanted mine to be.  Obviously, I have made my decision!  Ha!  With all the directions I could go with this, I chose to just go with them all and make it one big mess of a blog. 

You see, I play so many roles in my life and I have so many wants and dreams and desires that it is just too combersome to file, organize, and label everything.  Life doesn't really work that way anyway I suppose.  I mean, let's just try to make sense of it...shall we?!?  I'm a heavy weight but not a champion....so being a heavy weight doesn't carry that much glory in my life.  Therefore, I'm sure I'll be blogging of the challenges of weightloss.  I'm a sugar cookie baker and use icing to paint to life any creativity that may be lurking around me that day.  So I am sure you may see a few pictures and blogs about cookies that I favor now and then.  I am a soul that loves, seeks, and learns about the Lord....so there is a guarantee Christ and his work in my life will make an appearance often.  I am a wife that has an amazing relationship with my husband so I know I will mention my journey with Jason frequently.  Then there is the fact that I am a mother.  I will have plenty to share about my kids, my rises and falls as a mom, and my thoughts on what the hell I got myself into.  Amidst all these big topics are the other fun things like being a sister, a daughter, and a friend.  I am excited about my new blogging bit even if it may seem a bit "mad" at times! 

If anything, keep in mind that I find humor in EVERYTHING, I am very opinionated....but am also open to other points of view and welcome a good debate, I am extremely sarcastic and love sarcasm....I roll and frolic in the stuff quite frankly.... and I love to learn and try new things as often as possible!  Somewhere in all of this I am sticking my neck out and defining myself as me.  I am learning to not lose myself in the roles that I play so that when I am old and the kids are all gone, I won't have to discover myself all over again. 

Being a mom, I have learned that it is all to easy to lose myself in to-do lists and laundry and carpooling kids and chores and cooking and bills and playing the ref and packing lunches....  So much so, that by the end of the day, if I hear the word "mom" one more time, I may just spin my head, pull out my hair, bug out my eyes, and erupt a screech that only the demons in hell could translate.  That's not "me"....noooooo....I am SO not defined by that.  When the sun goes down and the quiet settles in the house and in my heart, I am left with a woman that is so much more than that.  I am a woman that has a legacy being written in the hearts of those around me and has decided to become the author of the words around me as well.  So, yeah....that's what this is all about!